Guess What I've Read?

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my inconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
- Invictus, by William Ernest Henley.

That poem is like a big 'fuck you' to the world.

Right now I am stuck between feeling absolutely terrified of everything and feeling so happy I want to break into a million pieces just for the fun of being put back together again. It leaves me confused.
Being around Someone is like having a rock thrown into me- it takes a while for the surface to settle and the ripples to disappear.
I'm being deliberately obtuse, and I'm not sure if that's even the right word.

Serenity now. *Does that hand gesture that Jenn does.*

~Jehane

The Soundtrack Of My Life- A Survey, Snatched With Glee.

Opening Credits: Rich, by Yeah Yeah Yeahs.

Waking Up: Celebrity Skin, by Hole.

Average Day: Loser by Beck, No Rain by Blind Melon.

First Date: Edge Of Seventeen by Stevie Nicks, Spellbound by Siouxsie and the Banshees.

Falling In Love: Crush by Jimmy Eat World, Underwater by Tegan And Sara, Violence by blink-182, She Is Beautiful by Andrew W. K, Glorious (Hybrid remix) by Andreas Johnson.

Love Scene (do they mean sex scene or IN-love scene?): Push It by Garbage (sex), Crimson and Clover by Joan Jett and Friday I'm In Love by the Cure (in love), Touched by Vast (both), Every You, Every Me by Placebo (meaningless sex).

Fight Scene: Kick It by Peaches and Iggy Pop, Combat Baby by Metric, Seether by Veruca Salt.

Chase Scene: My Brain Is Hanging Upside Down, by the Ramones, Hall Of Mirrors by the Distillers.

Breaking Up: Ain't That Enough by Melissa Etheridge, Bigmouth Strikes Again by the Smiths, This Is Not A Love Song by the Juliana Theory.

Getting Back Together: Come Away With Me by Norah Jones.

Secret Love: The Calendar Hung Itself by Bright Eyes.

Life's Okay: Take A Walk On The Wild Side by Lou Reed and the Velvet Underground, The Wonderful Future by Our Lady Peace.

Mental Breakdown: Self-Destruction Part Two by NIN, Carbon Kid by the Alpinestars and Brian Molko, Breath by Prodigy, Acrobat by U2.

Driving: 1979 by Smashing Pumpkins, Rattlesnake by Tori Amos.

Learning A Lesson: Daysleeper by REM.

Deep Thoughts: Personal Jesus by Depeche Mode (for cynical religious musings), The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot by Brand New, Raspberry by I Mother Earth, Hurt by NIN.

Flashback: What Ever Happened? by the Strokes.

Partying: Slither by Velvet Revolver.

Happy Dance: Heart Of Glass by Blondie, Ballrooms Of Mars by T-Rex, Boys Keep Swinging by David Bowie.

Regretting: This Time Imperfect by AFI.

Long Night Alone: Passive Aggressive, by Placebo.

Death Scene: Right before, Cinnamon Spider by Jack Off Jill, quiet while I'm actually dying, then afterwards No Longer Ortona by Readymade.

Closing Credits: Bandaid Covers The Bullethole by scarling.